insult to injury

so, i lost my job on friday.

i can’t say that it was totally unexpected (a job is only willing to put up with issues and illnesses so long, it seems), but it still stings and the fact that it happened right before christmas is just salt on the wound that has been this entire year.

i also admit that i’ve been pretty mopey and angry about the whole thing.

how dare they fire me?

but no one is irreplaceable, are they? especially in the work force. there’s always someone who’s willing to take up the space you filled for less and that’s what corporations want, right?

even in my situation, my desk was emptied and filled the very next day (i heard this from a friend who works in the very same department), and even that wasn’t shocking.

it still hurt, though.

i gave four years of my life to that job, and while it soured toward the end for various reasons (personal and health related alike), i did enjoy what i did.

but, dwelling on what could have (or should have) happened isn’t going to do anyone any good and as of today, i’ve spent a week doing the thing i told myself i wouldn’t do.

so, i’m not going to anymore.

i got fired.

it happens.

it sucks, and it’s a definite blow to my pride and ego, but i can look at this as a positive instead of a negative.

  1. i’m no longer working a job that i’m bored with for people that don’t want me around.
  2. i have the opportunity to explore new adventures
  3. i have time to focus on my studio and other projects i’ve put on the back burner

ultimately, i’ll be alright.

things are tough, but i’ve made it through my entire life by just tucking my head down and plowing forward.

this really isn’t all that different.

sure, money’s tight and i’m not quite sure where i’m going to scramble my next rent payment from, but i have to trust in the universe, right?

for months, everything’s been telling me that change is coming, that adventures await, that new beginnings are to be had.

i didn’t think it would be this extreme or jarring, but who am i to judge?

i just have to listen.

xx

move-in dayyyyy!

hello, hello!

perhaps you’ve noticed some changes.

if not, please be aware that simple savasana is now wander made studio.

the url is also http://www.wandermadestudio.com.

anyway, today is move-in day!

it’s finally here after quite a few months planning and i am so excited for all the possibilities this will bring.

@andoffshegoes chilling on her half of the studio

the official open date for sales is november 24th, the same day that our town is hosting a kick off to holiday shopping at the local mall where the artist studios are located.

watch this space for an official shop opening post, as well as some other goodies i can’t wait to share!

xx

 

under renovation

hello loyal readers!

i have been quiet for a while, but i wanted to let you all know that i’ve been quietly working on something in the background and now it’s time to let you all know about it!

for as long as i can remember, i’ve wanted some space of my own to work on my art and all the other creative outlets that i have.

because of some awesome people in my hometown utilizing empty space in our shopping mall and @andofshegoes, that dream has become a reality.

wandermade

as you might be able to tell, the name is different.

that does mean this blog name will be changing as soon as i can figure out how to do so. please follow me on social media!

insta: @wandermadestudio

twitter: @itswandermade

i will be keeping you all updated on the happenings and new, exciting things i have planned!

xx

 

in it to win it

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i’ve been thinking a lot lately, about how much stock i put into other peoples’ opinions about the things i do and what i’m doing with my life.

it’s exhausting and bothersome and creates so much anxiety that i often find myself paralyzed with the idea that someone may not approve of the path i’ve chosen or my beliefs or personality.

that was my entire childhood.

i let myself be hindered by others’ judgements and ideas about my life for as long as i can remember, all while also putting on the front that i was the one in control of my choices and decisions. it stopped me from having a lot of fun or doing some pretty amazing things.

granted, there were a few things i did that had very little to do with what anyone else thought i should be doing (going to europe for two weeks and driving half way across the country to watch the last harry potter movie with my high school best friend were probably the best things i ever did), but the big things, the important things like college and jobs and which course to set myself on, those were all shadowed by everyone else’s ideas of what my life should be.

i have recently accepted the fact that i will never be that square peg. i will never fit in a round hole and i am not meant to be stuck behind a desk for 40 hrs a week.

so, this is me washing my hands of other peoples’ bullshit expectations. this is me renting the studio space for my artwork like i’ve wanted to do for literal years but never did because there’s “no way i’ll sell enough to make it worth it”.

this is me going back to school, not for my parents, or because i’m supposed to, but for me.

this is me throwing down the gauntlet with life and saying “okay, you want to play? let’s play.” and then deciding here and now that i’m going to win.

game on.

xx

when the moon hits your eye…

when the moon hits your eye…

the moon.

there’s just something about it, right?

it’s so big and bright and cleansing.

the moon means many things to me, personally.

it’s a beacon in the sky, because no matter where i am or what i’m doing, it’s always there in some form, whether it’s just a sliver peeking out from the shadows or that big, luminous ball, hanging around and taking up space.

just the fact that it’s there and i can look up and see it at any time (most often times even during the day) is a very soothing thing for me.

it’s a teacher, in that i’m reminded that everything has a cycle and everything changes, but that that’s not necessarily a bad thing.

right now, i’m going through a lot of changes and the moon has been a constant reminder that even though sometimes, it might seem like things are in the shadow and suppressed, that’s no excuse to give up and just throw in the towel.

like the moon, this phase too shall pass and i’ll (hopefully) have learned whatever lesson the universe has to teach me.

the moon is also something of a guardian, left to watch over my thoughts and ideas and keep them safe until i am ready to process them and bring them to their full potential.

perhaps it’s weird to feel such a connection to a great orb in the sky, but that’s the way i’ve always been and i don’t really see myself changing any time soon.

i hope i never lose the need to track the moon through the sky, or feel the cleansing nature of the soft, mellow glow washing over my skin.

what a boring, unimaginative life that would be.

xx