the world these days…

i’ve spent quite a lot of time just thinking lately.

about the world, about the pandemic, about all the traveling i never got to do before we all learned that maybe charging headfirst into the unknown isn’t a good idea right now…

i’m one of the lucky ones.

my job allows me to stay employed and at home, for the most part. my boss has told me on multiple occasions that if i’m not comfortable coming into the office, he won’t hold it against me.

i know there are a lot of people out there who don’t have that luxury and i am trying to do my part to stay away from all the unnecessary places that people don’t need to visit right now. (i’m looking at you, karen. you don’t need that hair cut. sit down, shut up and think about someone other than yourself, m’kay?)

food, bank, home.

wash. rinse. repeat.

is it boring?

yes.

is it lonely?

honestly, i’ve never been more lonely in my life.

… is it necessary?

yes.

until all this is over (and the chances of it ever being over are in the negatives), this is the new normal.

buck up, buttercup.

one day, we might be able to walk through our own front doors without panicking about whether we washed our hands or not, but until then, we all need to saddle up and get comfy and decide how we’re doing to handle all of this upheaval.

me? well, i’ve i’m going to do my part to be kind, and helpful, and go out of my way to make people smile.

i don’t know how. i haven’t figured it out yet.

it’ll give me something to think about, anyway.

xx

insult to injury

so, i lost my job on friday.

i can’t say that it was totally unexpected (a job is only willing to put up with issues and illnesses so long, it seems), but it still stings and the fact that it happened right before christmas is just salt on the wound that has been this entire year.

i also admit that i’ve been pretty mopey and angry about the whole thing.

how dare they fire me?

but no one is irreplaceable, are they? especially in the work force. there’s always someone who’s willing to take up the space you filled for less and that’s what corporations want, right?

even in my situation, my desk was emptied and filled the very next day (i heard this from a friend who works in the very same department), and even that wasn’t shocking.

it still hurt, though.

i gave four years of my life to that job, and while it soured toward the end for various reasons (personal and health related alike), i did enjoy what i did.

but, dwelling on what could have (or should have) happened isn’t going to do anyone any good and as of today, i’ve spent a week doing the thing i told myself i wouldn’t do.

so, i’m not going to anymore.

i got fired.

it happens.

it sucks, and it’s a definite blow to my pride and ego, but i can look at this as a positive instead of a negative.

  1. i’m no longer working a job that i’m bored with for people that don’t want me around.
  2. i have the opportunity to explore new adventures
  3. i have time to focus on my studio and other projects i’ve put on the back burner

ultimately, i’ll be alright.

things are tough, but i’ve made it through my entire life by just tucking my head down and plowing forward.

this really isn’t all that different.

sure, money’s tight and i’m not quite sure where i’m going to scramble my next rent payment from, but i have to trust in the universe, right?

for months, everything’s been telling me that change is coming, that adventures await, that new beginnings are to be had.

i didn’t think it would be this extreme or jarring, but who am i to judge?

i just have to listen.

xx

move-in dayyyyy!

hello, hello!

perhaps you’ve noticed some changes.

if not, please be aware that simple savasana is now wander made studio.

the url is also http://www.wandermadestudio.com.

anyway, today is move-in day!

it’s finally here after quite a few months planning and i am so excited for all the possibilities this will bring.

@andoffshegoes chilling on her half of the studio

the official open date for sales is november 24th, the same day that our town is hosting a kick off to holiday shopping at the local mall where the artist studios are located.

watch this space for an official shop opening post, as well as some other goodies i can’t wait to share!

xx

 

under renovation

hello loyal readers!

i have been quiet for a while, but i wanted to let you all know that i’ve been quietly working on something in the background and now it’s time to let you all know about it!

for as long as i can remember, i’ve wanted some space of my own to work on my art and all the other creative outlets that i have.

because of some awesome people in my hometown utilizing empty space in our shopping mall and @andofshegoes, that dream has become a reality.

wandermade

as you might be able to tell, the name is different.

that does mean this blog name will be changing as soon as i can figure out how to do so. please follow me on social media!

insta: @wandermadestudio

twitter: @itswandermade

i will be keeping you all updated on the happenings and new, exciting things i have planned!

xx

 

in it to win it

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i’ve been thinking a lot lately, about how much stock i put into other peoples’ opinions about the things i do and what i’m doing with my life.

it’s exhausting and bothersome and creates so much anxiety that i often find myself paralyzed with the idea that someone may not approve of the path i’ve chosen or my beliefs or personality.

that was my entire childhood.

i let myself be hindered by others’ judgements and ideas about my life for as long as i can remember, all while also putting on the front that i was the one in control of my choices and decisions. it stopped me from having a lot of fun or doing some pretty amazing things.

granted, there were a few things i did that had very little to do with what anyone else thought i should be doing (going to europe for two weeks and driving half way across the country to watch the last harry potter movie with my high school best friend were probably the best things i ever did), but the big things, the important things like college and jobs and which course to set myself on, those were all shadowed by everyone else’s ideas of what my life should be.

i have recently accepted the fact that i will never be that square peg. i will never fit in a round hole and i am not meant to be stuck behind a desk for 40 hrs a week.

so, this is me washing my hands of other peoples’ bullshit expectations. this is me renting the studio space for my artwork like i’ve wanted to do for literal years but never did because there’s “no way i’ll sell enough to make it worth it”.

this is me going back to school, not for my parents, or because i’m supposed to, but for me.

this is me throwing down the gauntlet with life and saying “okay, you want to play? let’s play.” and then deciding here and now that i’m going to win.

game on.

xx