a time for release

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happy full moon in saggitarius, friends!

as you go through your day, work on releasing all the negative energy of the last cycle to begin anew tomorrow.

let the moonlight cleanse and rejuvenate you and wash all that gross ickiness away, leaving you feeling fresh and clean and ready for another day.

if it’s your jam, do a simple tarot reading to find out what this upcoming cycle has in store for you and let the excitement of what’s to come give you motivation to see your intentions through.

be kind to yourself and take it easy today, letting your body and mind rest.

treat yourself to a cleansing bath or meditation.

forget the bad, remember the good.

life is way too short to be focused on the bad anyway.

xx

for you, notre dame.

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today, my heart hurts.

today, notre dame is burning.

that cathedral plays the biggest part in my path in the most unexpected way.

in 2013, i was lucky enough to be able to visit that glorious building and witness it for myself.

i was also still coming to terms with my full break from a religion i’d grown up with to a new one that is against everything i had been taught.

i remember standing in front of the famed entrance in awe, nervous, a new pagan, and thinking, “am i even welcome? will she accept my presence or will she reject me and i’ll have to leave?”

i walked through the great, ancient doors and i didn’t know what to do, so i followed the crowd around the path.

i was shaking, i was so scared and frightened and i was half convinced everyone knew that i, a pagan, had no place there.

but then, the bells, those glorious, eons old bells tolled.

i was suddenly swept up in such a peaceful feeling of “i accept you, you’re welcome here, be well and good” that i burst into tears.

the building, the living breathing entity of history and time had reached out to me and, instead of chasing me away like i feared, welcomed me with open arms.

i, to this day, have never felt so peaceful in my life.

i stopped in front of the great, stained glass windows and i looked up, and i breathed.

on my way out, after taking it all in and just… being, i made my way to the doors again, only this time, i reached out and touched the stone walls and trailed my fingers along them.

i can still feel them.

so, as she burns to the ground, my heart is broken and heavy and so, so very thankful.

to notre dame, may she be rebuilt and continue to be a beacon of hope and comfort for eons to come.

xx

grounding, among other things…

i had an energy healing, or reiki, session done yesterday.

at first, i didn’t quite know what to expect, though i have studied the practice a little bit over the years.

but, my local crystal shop had an in-house practitioner in today and i figured, “what the hell? i’ve been feeling blocked and listless for a while, what could it hurt?”.

turns out, it didn’t hurt. at all.

during the session, the practitioner talked me through his process and what he was doing, but mostly, we were quiet, just letting the energy do its thing.

i wasn’t sure what i was supposed to be feeling, or if i was supposed to be feeling anything at all, but not too long after the session started, i noticed that it felt like i was going to be lifted right off the table by some sort of force, though i never actually moved.

it was the weirdest thing.

i asked the practitioner, and suddenly, that feeling got infinitely stronger around my lower back, like someone was physically lifting me by my hips.

he then asked if i’d felt that and when i confirmed, he explained that he’d pushed more energy to me to validate what i was feeling.

mind you, he hadn’t said anything before doing this and he hadn’t given me any indication that he was going to do anything differently than he already was, so i feel like i can rule out suggestion bias.

after that, he worked on some problem areas (mainly my head and feet) and when the session was over, we chatted a bit.

he let me know that perhaps i needed to add a grounding practice to my daily routine, through meditation or yoga, because there was something blocked around my root chakra, and also, that my headaches are apparently caused by my third eye trying to open.

so, i have quite a lot to ruminate on.

i’m not opposed to either of these things or any advice/information the practitioner gave me, though.

as a fairly open-minded individual, i take any and all people are willing to share with me and do my own research and looking into it before making a decision based on my findings and this will definitely be something i look further into, now that i have experience to back it up.

what are your experiences with reiki or energy healing? do you think it worked? why or why not?

xx