three things i learned from my cat

i am lucky enough to be allowed the esteemed company of a little black cat i adopted from a local agency here in my hometown, and let me tell you, is she a hoot.

her name is bird (actually, obsidian blackbird mcknight, but she allows me to shorten it, as she is quite the gracious creature) and she’s three years old and my life is nothing if not entertaining.

she’s always quick to remind me that life does not, in fact, revolve around myself and that it doesn’t matter when I get home from work or doing other fun things, so long as her food dish is full at precisely 5pm and that I’m always available for scritches when she wants them.

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needless to say, i’m not the owner here.

this is her world, i’m just allowed to stay in it.

anyway, i’ve never really been a cat person, per se, (i like them fine, but i do find that i prefer the company of a joyous, rowdy hound) but over the last few years, bird sure has taught me a thing or two about life.

she is benevolent enough to let me share them with you all.

(she’s a gem like that.)

1. always take time to lay in the sun.

we hear it time and time again, that being in the sun is good for us (to a point, as my current sunburn can attest to) and that we need a healthy amount of vitamin d to survive, but even more than that, it’s spiritual.

the sun has a warm quality to it that reminds us that we are alive and we are here. It’s revitalizing in all the best ways and we better not forget it.

2. eat only the best food and turn your nose up at the rest (best being whatever it is that you’re eating). 

i’m lucky in that Bird is not a picky eater. she eats pretty much whatever food i put in front of her, no matter if it’s the super expensive food or the kibble i’m forced to buy when money’s tight.

it’s a reminder to enjoy what you have and don’t worry about what you don’t. enjoy it all the same and bask in the full belly as a result.

3. take the time to play. 

bird has a feather boa toy that she goes crazy for. it’s orange and cheap and the most ridiculous thing, but she adores it and no matter what she’s doing, she will make a beeline across the room to chase it if i wave it around.

it’s a reminder that no matter how serious a task is that i’m currently working on is, i should always take the time to play and chase and have fun. the serious parts of life can wait, after all.

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as you can see, bird is a wise creature and has much knowledge to share. i hope you can gain as much from her “lessons” as i have.

i’m sure she has much left to teach as well.

i, for one, am looking forward to it.

xx

 

affirmations are a girl’s best friend…

i am nothing if not a chronic procrastinator.

i will wait until the last possible second to accomplish anything at all, even if this tactic ends up causing me so much stress i can’t function for hours after.

this makes very little sense, no matter which way you slice it, but somehow, i just never, ever learn.

that said, i’m learning.

one thing I’ve been trying to do this year (that is constantly thwarted by health issues and mutinies of the worst kind), is get better at achieving some of the goals i have for myself.

one way i’ve been trying to motivate myself is by the use of affirmations in every day life.

an affirmation is a great way to remind yourself of what you’re trying to accomplish without it being shoved down your throat, so to speak.

the way i use mine is that i try to write five affirmations in a journal every single day (or at least once a week on a week where i’m super busy or stressed or have low spoons) and i have even written out important affirmations on my bathroom mirror, that way, even if i don’t read them every day, my brain recognizes them on some level and they still do what they’re supposed to do.

because of these affirmations, i have found that i start my day out in a better mood and with a better outlook in general, ready to tackle any of life’s challenges. on top of that, it’s fun to go back and look over the affirmations from the last month to see how things have (or haven’t) changed.

the mind is a crazy, crazy thing and it’s kind of neat how we can reprogram and change how we think about things just by the information we choose to put into it.

kind of makes you think, doesn’t it?

here’s my affirmations for the next week:

i will take time for the things i need to, 

i will remember my worth. 

i will be the best i can be at all that i do. 

i will remain assertive and forthright in the things i am concerned about. 

i will learn how to say what i need to say, when i need to say it. 

what are yours?

xx

 

for you, notre dame.

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today, my heart hurts.

today, notre dame is burning.

that cathedral plays the biggest part in my path in the most unexpected way.

in 2013, i was lucky enough to be able to visit that glorious building and witness it for myself.

i was also still coming to terms with my full break from a religion i’d grown up with to a new one that is against everything i had been taught.

i remember standing in front of the famed entrance in awe, nervous, a new pagan, and thinking, “am i even welcome? will she accept my presence or will she reject me and i’ll have to leave?”

i walked through the great, ancient doors and i didn’t know what to do, so i followed the crowd around the path.

i was shaking, i was so scared and frightened and i was half convinced everyone knew that i, a pagan, had no place there.

but then, the bells, those glorious, eons old bells tolled.

i was suddenly swept up in such a peaceful feeling of “i accept you, you’re welcome here, be well and good” that i burst into tears.

the building, the living breathing entity of history and time had reached out to me and, instead of chasing me away like i feared, welcomed me with open arms.

i, to this day, have never felt so peaceful in my life.

i stopped in front of the great, stained glass windows and i looked up, and i breathed.

on my way out, after taking it all in and just… being, i made my way to the doors again, only this time, i reached out and touched the stone walls and trailed my fingers along them.

i can still feel them.

so, as she burns to the ground, my heart is broken and heavy and so, so very thankful.

to notre dame, may she be rebuilt and continue to be a beacon of hope and comfort for eons to come.

xx