a time to reflect…

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i’m excited for this new moon.

not only is it a new moon, a time for cleansings and welcoming in new beginnings, it’s also a dark moon, or, the second new moon in a single calendar month and a time of hightened energy and a great time to work on or dedicate yourself to personal growth.

i have been doing a lot of personal growth this year.

from multiple health issues (thyroid, migraine, general health), after having never really been an unhealthy person, to some financial woes, i’ve gone through a huge bout of soul searching and re-evaluation these last seven months.

it’s been a rollcoaster and i don’t know that i’ve fully come to a stop yet, but during this ebb, i’m planning on taking the time to reflect on all the good and bad of whatever cycle i was in the throes of.

i read once that the dark moon is the savasana of the moon cycle, and i find that super fitting, if not a little ironic, all things considered.

like savasana in yoga, the dark moon is a great time for reflection and absorbtion of all the lessons and teachings, though you may not know what those things are, or are aware that you even learned them.

i feel like that’s on purpose, as we are never completely done changing or shifting, much like the moon itself.

so, tomorrow night, i plan on sitting quietly, with my altar and myself, and just… digest.

meditate

breathe.

be.

will you join me?

affirmations are a girl’s best friend…

i am nothing if not a chronic procrastinator.

i will wait until the last possible second to accomplish anything at all, even if this tactic ends up causing me so much stress i can’t function for hours after.

this makes very little sense, no matter which way you slice it, but somehow, i just never, ever learn.

that said, i’m learning.

one thing I’ve been trying to do this year (that is constantly thwarted by health issues and mutinies of the worst kind), is get better at achieving some of the goals i have for myself.

one way i’ve been trying to motivate myself is by the use of affirmations in every day life.

an affirmation is a great way to remind yourself of what you’re trying to accomplish without it being shoved down your throat, so to speak.

the way i use mine is that i try to write five affirmations in a journal every single day (or at least once a week on a week where i’m super busy or stressed or have low spoons) and i have even written out important affirmations on my bathroom mirror, that way, even if i don’t read them every day, my brain recognizes them on some level and they still do what they’re supposed to do.

because of these affirmations, i have found that i start my day out in a better mood and with a better outlook in general, ready to tackle any of life’s challenges. on top of that, it’s fun to go back and look over the affirmations from the last month to see how things have (or haven’t) changed.

the mind is a crazy, crazy thing and it’s kind of neat how we can reprogram and change how we think about things just by the information we choose to put into it.

kind of makes you think, doesn’t it?

here’s my affirmations for the next week:

i will take time for the things i need to, 

i will remember my worth. 

i will be the best i can be at all that i do. 

i will remain assertive and forthright in the things i am concerned about. 

i will learn how to say what i need to say, when i need to say it. 

what are yours?

xx

 

a time for release

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happy full moon in saggitarius, friends!

as you go through your day, work on releasing all the negative energy of the last cycle to begin anew tomorrow.

let the moonlight cleanse and rejuvenate you and wash all that gross ickiness away, leaving you feeling fresh and clean and ready for another day.

if it’s your jam, do a simple tarot reading to find out what this upcoming cycle has in store for you and let the excitement of what’s to come give you motivation to see your intentions through.

be kind to yourself and take it easy today, letting your body and mind rest.

treat yourself to a cleansing bath or meditation.

forget the bad, remember the good.

life is way too short to be focused on the bad anyway.

xx

embracing the glorious mess…

i am an incredible clusterfuck of a human being.

some of you (you know who you are…) will take issue with my saying that, because it’s negative self talk, right, but it’s not negative.

it’s embracing the truth of my existance.

and you know what? if i’m being honest with myself, i’m happiest when i’m my messiest.

i’m never going to be one of those “instagram girls”, my eyebrows will never be “on point” and i will never, ever, ever know where my keys are, even though i just fucking had them and i don’t undertand-

i am me when i’m ridiculous and silly.

when i’m laughing so hard i can’t help but snort and when i’m ugly crying at a movie i’ve seen hundreds of times.

when i’m late for work and i have to take an alternative route but i get to sit and watch a family of turkeys play in the road in front of me and i wouldn’t have gotten the chance otherwise.

when i throw my hands up and say “fuck it” and sing that song at the bar or dance to that song i love. it’s not pretty, but it’s me.

my hair is never going to be tamed. it is a wild, frizzy lion’s mane of a thing and it won’t ever be anything else and i’ve given up trying.

let it be. let it go.

i try to pay my bills on time, but sometimes, things like food (or a matt nathanson concert…) come first and that’s okay too.

i am relearning myself.

i love yoga and vegan food and dancing to stupid songs.

i love coffee at midnight even though i have to work in the morning.

i have crippling anxiety that sometimes keeps me from doing the things i want to do.

fuck off, anxiety.

i love toting my camera around so that i can snap a photo of whatever it is that’s lucky enough to catch my eye.

hi, i’m ess and i am a wonderful, glorious, ridiculous mess.

who are you?

is “hobbitting” a thing?

if not, it should be.

i went on an adventure yesterday.

mostly unplanned, but still, enjoyable, it was one of the first really nice days of spring and when a friend (@asolitaryfeast) wanted to go to lunch, i couldn’t resist heading downtown for a stroll.

i love the atmosphere of downtown, what with all the hustle and bustle and fun to be found where you least expect it (we found a coffee shop tucked back in an alley one time. would never have known it was there if we hadn’t wandered that way on a whim).

we stopped at a second hand/antique store where i found about a dozen empty bottles for .50 a piece and i had to take them home. i don’t know what i’ll do with them, but what with the holistic shop i’m planning on opening very soon (watch this space!), i’m sure i’ll think of something.

anyway, we went to lunch at a lovely sushi restaurant and had poke bowls (poh-k? Poh-kay? we aren’t really sure, but if any of you know, please drop a comment.)

while not a fan of sushi all that much, i did enjoy the shrimp in my poke bowl, with its rice, ginger sauce and other toppings.

after that, we ducked in and out of a few local shops to peruse the new spring  “must haves” and other things.

we also stopped for what turned out to be the best chocolate chip peanut butter cookie i’ve ever had in my life. i half wish i was joking, but i’m not.

all in all, it was a fun day, full of good food and good company, and i hope to do it again soon.

xx