lammas blessings to you!

happy lammas, everyone!

today, i hope you take the time to reflect on the changes and blessings that you have received this year and set intentions for the remaining times we have this year.

i know, even with the struggles i’ve gone through, i have much to be thankful for.

a great way to give thanks and honor the universe for the gifts you’ve been given is to set up an altar and offering for whoever or whatever you feel has given you the things you have.

if you don’t honor or worship a deity, simply set up an altar and offering to honor yourself and your achievements.

may the next few months be plentiful and full and vibrant!

xx

a time for release

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happy full moon in saggitarius, friends!

as you go through your day, work on releasing all the negative energy of the last cycle to begin anew tomorrow.

let the moonlight cleanse and rejuvenate you and wash all that gross ickiness away, leaving you feeling fresh and clean and ready for another day.

if it’s your jam, do a simple tarot reading to find out what this upcoming cycle has in store for you and let the excitement of what’s to come give you motivation to see your intentions through.

be kind to yourself and take it easy today, letting your body and mind rest.

treat yourself to a cleansing bath or meditation.

forget the bad, remember the good.

life is way too short to be focused on the bad anyway.

xx

on labeling oneself

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like every new practitioner, i once found myself inundated with so much information i didn’t know what to do with it all.

where do i start? what do i need to know? how will i know this is the right path?

stop. breathe.

it’s going to be okay.

i’m going to let you in on a secret:

you don’t need a label.

wild, i know, but bear with me.

i myself have gone through many different phases along many different paths and let me tell you, none of the labels i gave myself ever stuck for long.

why? because i was and still am evolving into my true self.

and maybe “witch” doesn’t even apply to you.

that’s perfectly okay. there’s no rule book when it comes to your personal journey, except the one you write for yourself.

embrace it.

embrace the uncertainty and be willing to push those boundaries. that’s where you learn the most and obtain what it is you truly, truly need.

maybe even that something that you didn’t even know you needed in the first place.

that’s all part of the fun anyway.

enjoy it and let the ebb and flow of it guide you.

by opening yourself up to the chaos of taking everything in, you open up your mind to endless possibility and achieving of things you never dreamed yourself capable of doing.

live. be free. grow.

there may be time for labels as you learn your craft, whatever that craft might be, but in my experience, limiting oneself is detrimental and damaging to the creative and discovery process.

as a young practitioner, i ran into the struggle of labeling myself a kitchen witch.

not only was this not true (i am not, nor will i ever be a “kitchen witch”), but i also found myself not studying things i was interested in because it went against what I thought my lot in life was, simply because it “wasn’t what kitchen witches did”.

sure, i could have went against the grain and did my own thing, but in my case, I had to completely do away with the labels and constraints I’d given myself and start fresh.

i could have saved myself so much stress and drama.

in the end, save the labeling for an established practice and allow yourself absolute freedom to explore and change.

you may find it’s just the sort of spontaneity you need.

xx

the “eyes” have it…

i’ve been pretty nonexistent this last month, as you may have noticed.

oops.

long story short, my eyes decided to mutiny and i spent the better part of may struck down with ridiculous migraines and annoyingly doubled vision.

as a result, the only thing i could manage was to just barely crawl through my desk job responsibilities (which has me staring at a computer screen for 8+ hrs a day) and some days, i couldn’t even manage that.

but, enough of that pity party parade.

my eyes are on the mend, my head is (mostly) pain free, and i am so ready to get this show back on the road.

over the next coming weeks, watch this space (!) for more awesome posts and fun adventures to be had!

there may even be a few surprises on the horizon.

but you didn’t hear it from me.

welcome summer! it’s about time you got here!

xx

embracing the glorious mess…

i am an incredible clusterfuck of a human being.

some of you (you know who you are…) will take issue with my saying that, because it’s negative self talk, right, but it’s not negative.

it’s embracing the truth of my existance.

and you know what? if i’m being honest with myself, i’m happiest when i’m my messiest.

i’m never going to be one of those “instagram girls”, my eyebrows will never be “on point” and i will never, ever, ever know where my keys are, even though i just fucking had them and i don’t undertand-

i am me when i’m ridiculous and silly.

when i’m laughing so hard i can’t help but snort and when i’m ugly crying at a movie i’ve seen hundreds of times.

when i’m late for work and i have to take an alternative route but i get to sit and watch a family of turkeys play in the road in front of me and i wouldn’t have gotten the chance otherwise.

when i throw my hands up and say “fuck it” and sing that song at the bar or dance to that song i love. it’s not pretty, but it’s me.

my hair is never going to be tamed. it is a wild, frizzy lion’s mane of a thing and it won’t ever be anything else and i’ve given up trying.

let it be. let it go.

i try to pay my bills on time, but sometimes, things like food (or a matt nathanson concert…) come first and that’s okay too.

i am relearning myself.

i love yoga and vegan food and dancing to stupid songs.

i love coffee at midnight even though i have to work in the morning.

i have crippling anxiety that sometimes keeps me from doing the things i want to do.

fuck off, anxiety.

i love toting my camera around so that i can snap a photo of whatever it is that’s lucky enough to catch my eye.

hi, i’m ess and i am a wonderful, glorious, ridiculous mess.

who are you?